A Brand New Me

Probably, I’m one of the most weird girls u’ve ever meet. SO full of laughters and also a bit of melancholic sometimes. Fiesty sometimes but geeky and nerdy most of the time. I do feel like a bit of drama queen, but then again, everybody’s a drama queen! And they’re much better than me. I love rainy days, because afterwards u’ll be able to see the rainbow and smell the wet ground. I find it very comforting, and pretty symbolic to me. It’s like rain can sweep away ur tears, ur sadness, ur sorrow and promise u a brand new things afterwards. I’m starting a new thing, starting around January 2009.

Inject myself with tons of positive things, embrace so many things, did a bit of make over and stepping out of my comfort zone, something that not most people would dare to do. And believe me, the things that I’m doing now is soooo much different from the things that I’ve done in my previous activities. I’m a brave girl, I know that from long time ago. I know I do things mostly without thinking abt them first, I just jump into one situation and then I’ll find myself swimming around looking for explanations abt whatever I was doing. At the end of the day I stand up feeling exhausted, can’t imagine how in the world did I get there…but can say that I proud of myself.

I smile more, I laugh more, I watch romantic movies ( something that I would never even imagine ), I work out more, I listen to love songs instead of heart breaking ones ( FYI I just broke up couple of weeks ago and instantly erased all of those kind of songs from my playlist, and I feel like I was being reborn again ), I learn new things ( like how to kick a man in the butt and run as fast as I can before he does the same to me ^_^ ), but the most important thing is….I fall in love again.

I fall in love again with the friendships I have with my childhood friends, with the image of myself reflected in the mirror, with the songs I keep play in my Ipod playlist, with the books I’ve never read before, with the life after he’s gone, with the life that’s waiting for me, but most of it, I fall in love with God…The Mighty God. And I love this feeling. And I’m not going to stop.